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  • When a Meal Becomes a Memory

    When a Meal Becomes a Memory

    Salt, Ink & Soul — Humanity Through Food Series

      Certain meals stop being food and start becoming something else.

    They begin as plates you throw together because you’re hungry, because it’s Sunday. After all, that’s what somebody’s mother or grandmother always made when the week finally exhaled. But somewhere along the way, without ceremony or announcement, that meal crosses a line. It stops being just dinner and turns into a place you go.

    You don’t just eat it.

    You return to it.

    We don’t talk about it out loud most of the time, but all of us have that one plate we reach for when we’re sad, or tired, or quietly unraveling. The one we lean on when we’re happy, too. The meal that shows up for birthdays and bad days, big news and no news. The one you make when you want to be alone with your thoughts, and the one you order when you don’t have it in you to talk about what you’re feeling, but you still need something that understands.

    Mine is simple. So simple it almost feels silly to admit.

    Fried chicken and macaroni and cheese.

    That’s it.

    No fancy twist. No elevated version. Just what it is.

    From Sunday dinners to regular weekday meals, it has always been an all-purpose comfort for me. The kind of plate that doesn’t need a special occasion to make sense, but rises to meet any occasion anyway. I can’t tell you exactly when I started loving it this way. There wasn’t some cinematic moment where the camera zoomed in, and the music swelled. It just… settled in over time.

    Somewhere between childhood and now, that plate stopped being “fried chicken and mac and cheese” and became my meal. My anchor. My reset button.

      These days, it hits the hardest in December.

    Right now is the best time for it, because it’s wrapped up with another ritual: Christmas movies. The kind I’ve seen so many times I can mouth the lines before the actors say them, and yet it still doesn’t get old.

    For me, the centerpiece of that whole season is A Charlie Brown Christmas.

    I’ve watched it more times than I can count. I know when the music will swell, when the kids will dance on that small stage, when Charlie Brown will look around at the world and see something missing that nobody else wants to name. And yet, every time it comes on, it feels like I’m seeing it for the first time and coming home at the same time.

    There’s a rhythm to it now.

    I start the TV.

    I fix the plate—fried chicken, mac and cheese, nothing fancy, just right.

    I sit down and let both of them do what they do.

    The crunch of the chicken.

    The heavy, creamy weight of the mac.

    That soft, sad-sweet piano line drifting through the room.

    The screen glows. The fork moves. The world narrows down to a small circle of light, sound, and taste.

    And in that circle, I am okay.

      It’s not that the problems disappear. The bills don’t magically pay themselves because I put on a cartoon from the ’60s. The loneliness of December doesn’t evaporate because there’s cheese melting on my plate. The ghosts of old seasons, old arguments, old losses—they all still exist.

    But for the length of that special, with that plate in my lap, the sharp edges of life soften.

    The meal becomes more than calories.

    The movie becomes more than nostalgia.

    Together, they become a ritual—a small ceremony of survival.

    That’s the thing we don’t always say out loud: comfort isn’t always grand. Sometimes it’s just consistent. Sometimes it’s a plate you’ve had a hundred times and a story you know by heart showing up for you when you don’t have the words to ask for help.

    Fried chicken and mac and cheese aren’t heroic.

    Charlie Brown Christmas isn’t epic in scale.

    But somehow, when the house is quiet and the year feels heavier than you want to admit, they work together like a kind of emotional shorthand. The flavors tell your body, “You’ve been here before, and you made it through.” The movie tells your heart, “You’re not the only one who looks around and feels slightly out of place.”

      Over time, that combination becomes bigger than the sum of its parts.

    The meal calls up the memories: Sunday dinners, laughter from another room, people who were there and people who aren’t anymore. The movie folds around those memories like a blanket, wrapping the past and the present together in one long, uninterrupted feeling.

    That’s when a meal becomes a memory.

    Not because someone took a picture of it.

    Not because it landed on a holiday menu.

    But because you kept going back to it, again and again, until your life wrapped itself around it.

    You could take away the decorations, the gifts, the perfect tree, the curated seasonal playlists. And if I still had that plate and that movie, I’d still have something that felt like Christmas to me.

    It’s easy to dismiss these rituals as small, even trivial. Just comfort food. Just a cartoon. Just another December evening. But the older I get, the more I understand that these “justs” are the threads holding a lot of us together.

    Some people have big gatherings and full tables to mark this season. Others have a single plate and a glowing screen. Both are valid. Both are real. Both are ways of saying, “I’m still here. I’m still trying to feel something good.”

    So when I sit down with fried chicken, mac and cheese, and that familiar boy with the round head and heavy heart, I’m not just watching TV and eating dinner.

    I’m revisiting every version of myself that has ever needed that moment.

    Every year, I’ve made it this far.

    Every December, I’ve managed to carve out a little corner of warmth, even when the rest of the world felt cold.

    That’s the quiet power of a favorite meal in a favorite season: it doesn’t just fill you.

    It remembers you.

    It meets you where you are—sad, joyful, exhausted, hopeful, or somewhere tangled in between—and it says, “Come on. Sit down. We’ve been here before. We can do it again.”

    And in that way, a simple plate and a simple movie become something sacred.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • The Quiet Dignity of Beans

    The Quiet Dignity of Beans

    Salt, Ink & Soul — Humanity Through Food Series

    I live now in New Mexico — a place where beans are more than food.

    They’re a landscape.

    A rhythm.

    A quiet religion built into the daily life of the people who’ve been here long before asphalt and subdivisions.

    Out here, beans carry the weight of generations. They simmer slowly on back burners, folded into stews, stretched across cold evenings, made sacred by repetition and memory. People speak of them with a kind of reverence I’m still learning to understand — the way you might talk about a story your grandmother told you a hundred times, knowing the hundred-and-first will still matter.

    But that wasn’t my experience growing up.

    Where I came from, the sight of beans didn’t bring comfort.

    It filled my stomach with dread.

      I’ve written before about the sinking feeling that washed over me when I saw a pot of beans soaking in the sink. It was a kind of childhood math — unspoken but understood. Beans meant money was tight. Beans meant there were no extra groceries to choose from. Beans meant stretching, rationing, surviving.

    As kids, we formed a silent pact around it — not one spoken in words but in looks exchanged across the kitchen. We all felt it. That quiet disappointment disguised as appetite. Beans were never the meal we hoped for. They were the meal we needed.

    And the way we carried that memory into adulthood…

    That’s its own complicated story.

    One of my sisters swears she’s “allergic” to beans.

    A medical impossibility, the rest of us laugh at —

    not out of cruelty, but out of recognition.

    We know the truth.

    It’s not her body reacting — it’s the past.

    Invisible scars are funny that way —

    they flare up without warning,

    dictate tastes and habits,

    and live under the skin long after the hard years have passed.

    For each of us, beans became something to avoid —

    a symbol of the lean seasons we survived together.

    But here’s the truth buried under all that resistance:

    We didn’t like them…

    But they kept us alive.

    And we knew it.

    When I talk to others about this — about beans, scarcity, survival food — I’m surprised by how familiar the story feels.

    Almost everyone has a version of the same confession:

    “We didn’t like it. But we didn’t starve.”

    Peanut butter sandwiches.

    Canned soup.

    Government cheese.

    Rice dishes stretched thin.

    Leftovers reinvented until they became something else entirely.

    And, of course, beans.

    It’s strange how something so simple can carry so much emotional weight.

    A pot of beans meant another day we’d make it.

    Another day, we wouldn’t go to bed hungry.

    Another day, we’d stretch what we had until something better came along.

    Beans were the food that stood between us and the cliff.

    And now, all these years later, we still feel the echo of that grind.

      Moving to New Mexico forced me to reconsider everything I thought I knew about beans.

    Here, they aren’t a symbol of lack.

    They’re a symbol of identity.

    Of pride.

    Of cultural endurance.

    Of flavors perfected not out of necessity but out of intention.

    I’ve watched families here talk about beans the way some people talk about heirlooms — with respect, with memory, with joy. They’re part of feasts, gatherings, rituals. They hold meaning.

    It’s made me rethink what I grew up believing.

    Made me wonder if healing sometimes looks like learning to see an old wound through a new lens.

    Someone recently told me to try Navajo tacos.

    And maybe I will — perhaps that’s my first step into rewriting a relationship shaped by childhood scarcity.

    Maybe the world has been trying to teach me that beans are more than the fear I attached to them.

    I don’t know if my siblings feel that shift.

    I don’t know if they ever will.

    But I’m starting to.

    The Quiet Dignity of What Sustains Us

    The older I get, the more I realize this:

    There is a quiet dignity in the foods that kept us alive.

    Even the ones we claimed to resent.

    Even the ones that came with silent embarrassment.

    Even the ones we push away now, out of habit or history.

    Because survival has its own kind of grace —

    a soft, steady grace that doesn’t ask to be admired.

    It just asks to be acknowledged.

    Beans taught me that.

    They taught me resilience long before I had the language for it.

    They taught me how families stretch together.

    How siblings develop the same scars in different shapes.

    How a kitchen can hold both struggle and salvation at once.

      Beans may not have been our first choice. They may have carried more memories than flavor back then. But they fed us. They kept us standing. And in their own quiet way, they taught us how to survive when survival felt like the only thing we could afford.

      I wish I could end this with a great bean recipe—some treasured family dish or perfected method—but the truth is, I don’t have one. If you do, or if there’s a recipe that carried you through your own seasons of scraping by and making do, please share the link. I’d be grateful to learn from you.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • “Questions for the Future”

    “Questions for the Future”

    There’s a kind of fear that doesn’t arrive all at once. It doesn’t kick down the door. It seeps in, like humidity through cracked paint or smoke through the seams of a closed window. The kind that makes a home in your chest, building slowly and silently. That’s the kind of fear I’ve had about writing.

    Because writing—real writing—isn’t just performance. It’s not what you show them. It’s what leaks out in the spaces you don’t control. In the metaphors you didn’t mean to use. The slip of a memory. The softness in a sentence when you swore you were being strong. That’s the terror. That somehow, on a blank page, people will see you—unasked, unfiltered, unprepared.

    And I’ve been dodging that kind of exposure for a long time.

      You grow up learning to hide parts of yourself. In some neighborhoods, vulnerability is just another way to get hit—emotionally, spiritually, or with something less metaphorical. So you learn. You get good at it. You make armor out of silence and humor out of pain. You laugh loud enough to drown out the parts of yourself you don’t want heard.

      For me, it started early—ridiculed for being soft. For caring. For feeling things too deeply. Every time I let something slip, there was a consequence. Sometimes it was teasing. Sometimes it was loneliness. Over time, the message became clear: protect yourself.

    So I did. I built walls with intention. Not just to keep people out, but to keep something in—me.

      Lately, though, I’ve started letting people in. Not the whole crowd. Just a few. Just enough. You find someone you trust—maybe a friend who knows the shape of your silence—and you let them see a little more. A crack. A draft of warmth. Not a storm.

    But still, I worry.

      Because once the dam is broken, who controls the flood?

    That’s the thing about pain: it’s obedient until it isn’t.

    So I let it out in trickles. A sentence here. A sigh there. I’ve convinced myself that’s safer. That if the moment goes sideways, I can slam the valve shut and pretend like I never said anything at all.

    I’m curious if that’s preservation or cowardice. Or both.

      Sometimes, the isolation feels like a weighted blanket that won’t get off my chest. You carry the weight of your untold stories like overdue bills, knowing the interest is accumulating. You pretend you’re just private. But privacy, in excess, becomes starvation.

    You tell yourself you’re protecting yourself—but at what cost?

    When no one knows your whole name, who will mourn you properly?

      That’s the mess of it. Writing—this act of storytelling—isn’t always about catharsis. Sometimes it’s confrontation. Sometimes it’s putting a mirror to your own face and realizing you’ve spent years looking away. The stories we don’t tell are often the ones we most need to understand.

    I write now not because I want to be known, but because I’m starting to believe that parts of me are worth knowing.

    And if someone out there reads this and recognizes their own mask, their own silence, their own slow-burning rage and resignation—maybe we’ve both done something that matters.

      I don’t have answers. Just questions for the future.

    What happens when you open too much?

    What happens when you never open at all?

    Maybe the trick isn’t to dam the flood or drown in it—maybe it’s to learn to wade.

    Even if it means revealing that you bleed just like everyone else.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • What I’m Grateful For on the Days After

    What I’m Grateful For on the Days After

    Salt, Ink & Soul — Weekend Reflection

    The days after Thanksgiving have always felt like a breath I didn’t realize I was holding. The noise fades, the house settles, and suddenly there’s space — space to think, to feel, to hear the quiet truths that get lost in the rush of the holiday.

    There’s a different kind of gratitude that lives in these slower hours.

    Not the big, performative kind that gets spoken around tables or posted online.

    But the smaller, steadier kind — the gratitude that rises from the life you return to when the celebration ends.

    I’m grateful that I have a place to stay — a space that holds me, shelters me, and gives me room to breathe.

    I’m grateful that I have food to eat — not just the leftovers stacked in the fridge, but the comfort of knowing the next meal is within reach.

    I’m grateful that I have a job to go to — a place to show up, to contribute, to remain anchored in a world that often feels uncertain.

    And I’m grateful — deeply, quietly grateful — for my friends.

    The ones who check in without being asked.

    The ones who text or call just to make sure I’m alright.

    The ones who notice the small shifts in my voice and remind me I don’t have to carry everything alone.

    That kind of care is its own blessing.

    Soft, steady, and honest.

    I’m grateful for the leftovers that gently carry me into the days ahead.

    For the containers packed a little fuller than expected.

    For the warmth of yesterday lingering inside today’s refrigerator light.

    Some blessings arrive loud.

    Others whisper.

    And I’m learning — slowly, steadily — to hear both.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • A Love Letter to Potlucks, Church Basements, and Aluminum Trays

    A Love Letter to Potlucks, Church Basements, and Aluminum Trays

    Salt, Ink & Soul — Humanity Through Food Series

    There’s a special kind of magic that happens when a community decides—quietly, without fuss—that everyone needs to be fed.

    Not in some grand, official sense.

    Not with grants or committees or agendas.

    Just fed.

    Fed the old-fashioned way:

    On a folding table in a warm room that smells like memory, grief, pride, and somebody’s auntie’s best Fried Chicken.

    I’ve always had a soft spot for potlucks. Maybe it’s because people bring their best selves to those tables—literally. Every dish arrives covered in foil and hope, carried by someone who has spent the whole morning stirring and tasting and adjusting because they wanted to show what they could do. Not to brag. But to share.

    A potluck is a quiet confession:

    This is the dish I trust to speak for me.

    And there’s something beautiful about the way people place their food on the table and then pretend not to watch. They hover from a distance—not out of ego, but out of longing. Waiting for that smile. That small nod. That moment when someone tastes their dish and closes their eyes, just for a heartbeat, because something familiar touched them.

    You can’t buy that moment.

    You can only feed it.

    Church basements have their own flavor of truth.

    The ceilings are low. The chairs wobble. The lighting flickers. But none of that matters, because the food—the real food—is honest. Greens cooked down until they surrendered. Cakes that lean to the left but taste like heaven. Macaroni and cheese that could heal almost anything.

    People don’t come to impress in those spaces.

    They come to belong.

    They come to be held by the warmth of a room that has seen everything: baptisms, funerals, heartbreak, and survival. And in every season of life, the table stays set.

    Long before the world used terms like mutual aid, this was it.

    This was the safety net.

    This was how communities kept each other alive.

    No one asked, “What can I bring?”

    They asked, “Who needs to eat?”

    And somehow the table always balanced itself—one person bringing meat, another bringing bread, someone else bringing something sweet, and a few saints making sure the greens showed up so the ancestors wouldn’t fuss.

    It wasn’t organized.

    It was instinctual.

    Care doesn’t need a sign-up sheet.

    It just needs a kitchen.

    I think about those aluminum trays—the ones that bend if you hold them wrong. They don’t look like much, but they’ve carried entire histories. Weddings. Funerals. Reunions. Wednesday nights where people just needed a reason not to be alone.

    Aluminum trays are our generation’s scarred cast-iron skillets: humble, overlooked, essential.

    And they remind me of something I fear we’re losing in our digital, curated world:

    We were feeding each other long before we were performing for each other.

    A potluck isn’t content.

    It’s a community.

    It’s generosity without ceremony.

    It’s survival disguised as Sunday comfort.

    That’s probably why I love them so much.

    Because in a culture obsessed with individualism, a potluck is a rebellion.

    It says: We do this together.

    It says: Come as you are, and bring whatever you can.

    It says: There is room for you at this table, even if life hasn’t been kind, even if you feel small, even if all you could manage today was paper plates.

    Food has always been the language that makes room for the parts of us we don’t know how to name.

    So here’s my love letter—

    to the potlucks, the church basements, the community centers, the too-small living rooms, the aluminum trays carried in trembling hands.

    To the people who show up with their best dishes and their quiet hopes.

    To those who feed others before feeding themselves.

    To the tables that held us long before we had the words for what we were carrying.

    May we never forget how to gather like this.

    May we always remember that survival was never meant to be a solo act.

    And may we keep spreading these tables—wherever we can, with whatever we have—so no one has to face the world hungry, unseen, or alone.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • 🍰 Pound Cake: The Sweet Weight of Simplicity

    🍰 Pound Cake: The Sweet Weight of Simplicity

    Timeless comfort from almost nothing — serves 8–10

    🧾 Ingredients

    • 2 cups all-purpose flour
    • 2 cups granulated sugar
    • 1 cup butter (2 sticks, salted or unsalted)
    • 4 large eggs
    • ½ cup milk
    • 2 tsp vanilla extract
    • 1 tsp baking powder
    • ¼ tsp salt
    • Zest of 1 lemon (optional)

    Servings: 8–10 generous slices

    🍳 Instructions

    1. Preheat & Prepare

    Set oven to 350°F (175°C).

    Grease and lightly flour a loaf pan or bundt pan.

    (Use butter for this step if you want your kitchen to smell like nostalgia.)

    2. Cream the Base

    In a large bowl, beat the butter and sugar until pale, airy, and fluffy — about 4 minutes.

    This is where patience, air, and memory become part of the batter.

    3. Add the Eggs

    Add the eggs one at a time, mixing well after each.

    Watch the mixture turn a warm golden color — the shade of good memory.

    4. Blend the Dry Ingredients

    In a separate bowl, whisk together:

    • Flour
    • Baking powder
    • Salt

    5. Bring It Together

    Add the dry ingredients to the butter mixture gradually, alternating with milk and vanilla.

    Mix only until smooth — overmixing steals tenderness.

    6. Pour & Bake

    Pour the batter into your prepared pan and smooth the top.

    Bake for 50–60 minutes, until golden brown and a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean.

    (If the top browns too quickly, tent loosely with foil.)

    7. Cool & Serve

    Let the cake rest 10 minutes before turning it out.

    Cool completely on a rack.

    Serve plain, dusted with powdered sugar, or crowned with fresh fruit — this cake never asks for more than what you already have.

    🕯️ Stretch It Further

    • Breakfast: Toast slices with butter and a sprinkle of cinnamon.
    • Dessert: Top with berries and whipped cream.
    • Gift: Wrap in parchment and twine — nothing says love like a homemade pound cake.
    • Freezer-Friendly: Wrap individual slices in foil or plastic wrap for easy storage. Keeps up to 3 months.

    💭 The Soul Behind It

    Pound cake is one of those recipes that has survived every storm — Depression, war, loss, and celebration alike.

    It was born from equality: a pound of each ingredient, no waste, no vanity.

    It’s proof that sometimes sweetness isn’t a luxury — it’s a memory baked into the bones of survival.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • Alternatives to Thanksgiving — Rewriting the Holiday

    Alternatives to Thanksgiving — Rewriting the Holiday

    There comes a moment in late November when the air shifts not just in temperature but in expectation. The world begins rehearsing its yearly performance — the food, the family, the football, the familiar script repeated so often it feels carved into the country’s memory.

    And if you fit neatly into that script, it can feel warm, grounding, like returning to a language you somehow still remember fluently.

    But for others, the holiday arrives like an old story they no longer belong to.

    Most people don’t talk about those who feel the season coming like a weight. The people who look at the calendar and feel their chests tighten. The ones who know that the hardest holidays aren’t always the ones filled with chaos, but the ones filled with quiet.

    The kind of quiet that makes you hear yourself.

    Some people try to rewrite the holiday in small, quiet ways — making it about something more than the expected trinity of food, family, and football. They find their gratitude not at a crowded table, but standing in the fluorescent light of a food pantry, handing out turkeys and canned goods with a soft smile, hoping no one sees the ache behind it.

    For them, volunteering isn’t charity. It’s survival.

    A way of turning their loneliness into something useful, something human, something that means they didn’t spend the day hiding from the world.

    Because expecting yourself to shoulder a season of loneliness — to sit through a holiday full of painful memories — isn’t strength. It’s a self-inflicted exile.

    And exile is not a tradition worth keeping.

    The truth is this:

    The holiday season is one of the hardest times of year to be single, estranged, rebuilding, recovering, or simply alone.

    The world keeps offering images of togetherness, and it’s easy to forget that they’re curated, staged, and performed. That countless people sitting at those big tables are hurting too, just more quietly.

    But being alone does not mean you must be lonely.

    Humans are built for community. For congregating. For creating small pockets of belonging wherever we can find them. We weren’t designed for isolation — the world simply taught us how to perform it.

    So some people start the slow, brave work of rewriting the holiday.

    Not erasing it — rewriting it.

    It may mean opening your home to friends who don’t have anywhere else to be.

    It could mean joining a community meal where the only rule is kindness.

    It may mean spending the morning volunteering, feeding people who understand hunger in more ways than one.

    Maybe it means choosing a different ritual altogether — a long walk, a favorite movie, a personal tradition unburdened by expectation.

    It could look like sitting with a small plate you prepared for yourself, not out of sadness, but out of intention — honoring your own company instead of apologizing for it.

    It could look like surrounding yourself with people who understand the quiet parts of you.

    It could look like helping someone else survive the holiday so you don’t have to face your own reflection all day long.

    It might take courage.

    Let go of the script you were handed as a child.

    It might take admitting that the table you grew up sitting at wasn’t always a place of warmth but a place of wounds.

    Traditions are beautiful until they become burdens.

    Holidays are comforting until they become cages.

    And sometimes the bravest thing you can do is step outside of both.

    Rewriting the holiday doesn’t mean you’re rejecting the past.

    It means you’re learning to honor the present — your present — even if it looks nothing like what you were taught to expect.

    This year, if your table is empty, build another.

    If the memories are heavy, reshape them.

    If the day threatens to swallow you whole, step outside of it.

    Make something new.

    Make something honest.

    Make something that doesn’t hurt to hold.

    Because you don’t have to feel lonely just because you are alone.

    And you don’t have to disappear just because the world expects you to stay quiet.

    You can choose connection — even in small doses.

    You can choose a community — even if you have to build it from scratch.

    You can choose gratitude — even if it isn’t wrapped in tradition.

    Rewriting the holiday is not an act of rebellion.

    It’s an act of survival.

    An act of self-respect.

    An act of saying:

    I deserve a holiday that makes room for me.

    Sometimes that means sitting at a new table.

    Sometimes it means opening a door for someone else.

    Sometimes it means starting over.

    But always — always — it means choosing yourself.

    And that kind of choice?

    That is something to be grateful for.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • Thanksgiving for One — A Seat for Yourself

    Thanksgiving for One — A Seat for Yourself

    There’s a certain script people expect when they think of Thanksgiving.

    It usually starts with food — the turkey, the stuffing, the pie cooling on the counter. Then it moves to the cast of characters: the family gathering in mismatched chairs, the friend who always brings too much dessert, the cousin who drifts in late but still leaves with leftovers. We imagine houses alive with noise, people dipping in and out of conversations, stories resurfacing like relics rediscovered once a year.

    And for many, that is the holiday.

    The crowd.

    The warmth.

    The familiar chaos.

    But that’s not everyone’s story.

    There’s another Thanksgiving that doesn’t make the commercials — the one reserved for the people who spend the day alone. Not necessarily by choice, not always by circumstance, but by the quiet gravity of life pulling them into a different kind of holiday.

    Sometimes there are invitations, yes.

    People say, “Come join us,” with genuine kindness.

    But the invitation is the easy part.

    It’s the arrival that carries the weight.

    It’s stepping into “someone else’s family,” hearing the whispers, the curious looks, the unfiltered questions.

    Who is he?

    Where’s his family?

    Why’s he here?

    It’s not always spoken, but you feel it — that subtle awareness that you’re a guest in a tradition built for someone else’s memories.

    As a result, many people skip the gatherings.

    They skip the polite smiles, the explanations, the feeling of being a footnote in someone else’s holiday.

    Instead, they think, ‘Maybe I’ll just go out to eat.‘

    But walk into a restaurant on Thanksgiving and you’ll find tables full of families who chose convenience over cooking — and even that can feel like too much. The laughter, the shared plates, the kids fidgeting in their seats. It’s a reminder of what isn’t yours, what isn’t here, what didn’t happen.

    So the quiet alternative becomes a night at home.

    A small meal — not the kind meant to impress, just something made with the intention of getting through the day with dignity. Maybe a favorite dish, something nostalgic enough to soothe the edges of the evening. The game plays in the background, filling the silence with the familiar noise of other people’s rituals.

    It’s not lonely at first.

    Not really.

    It’s just… quieter.

    You eat.

    You clean up.

    You sit with the softness of the night.

    You tell yourself it’s fine — that plenty of people do this.

    And then, after the last dish is rinsed, after the game ends and the commercials begin to repeat themselves, the house settles in a particular kind of stillness. The kind that feels bigger than the room itself.

    You could put on a movie.

    You could do a little work, because work doesn’t celebrate holidays.

    You could scroll through pictures of other people’s tables, telling yourself you’re just checking in.

    And then, without fail, a specific melody threads its way through the speakers — Mariah Carey’s voice, bright and impossibly cheerful, singing “All I Want for Christmas Is You.”

    And that’s when the real truth hits:

    Thanksgiving isn’t the end of something — it’s the beginning.

    It’s the opening note to a season built on closeness and connection, on gatherings and gifts and rituals that depend on “we” more than “I.” It’s the first moment you realize you’re stepping into a stretch of holidays that were never designed with solitude in mind.

    You hear that song, and some part of you — conscious or not — begins planning.

    How am I going to get through the next month?

    What do these holidays look like for me?

    What am I holding onto, and what am I grieving?

    These thoughts don’t make you weak.

    They make you human.

    There is a quiet courage in spending a holiday alone.

    Not everyone understands that.

    Not everyone has had to.

    There is dignity in creating your own table, even if it only seats one.

    There is meaning in making yourself a small meal, even if no one else sees it.

    There is strength in choosing to face the day on your own terms — whether with a football game, a favorite movie, or the gentle ritual of simply being kind to yourself.

    And there is no shame in being alone.

    There is no failure in a quiet holiday.

    There is no deficit in a table that doesn’t overflow.

    Sometimes the seat you offer yourself is the most honest one you’ll ever sit in.

    Thanksgiving, for one, is still Thanksgiving.

    It’s still a moment to breathe, to reflect, to acknowledge the complicated, fragile joy of making it through another year. It’s a chance to honor yourself — not as an afterthought, but as the whole intention.

    If your table only has one chair this year, let it be enough.

    Let your presence be enough.

    Let the night unfold in its own quiet way.

    And when that song plays — when it signals the next season approaching — remember this:

    You have survived harder things than a holiday.

    And you are still here.

    That counts for something.

    Sometimes that counts for everything.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • Budget Thanksgiving — Making Enough 

    Budget Thanksgiving — Making Enough 

      There’s a moment each year — usually sometime in the second week of November — when people start looking at the grocery flyers a little differently.

    Not with excitement.

    Not with the old holiday anticipation.

    But with calculation.

    We used to joke about Thanksgiving being the one meal that knocked you into a food coma, the sacred tradition of overeating as if it were part of the liturgy. But these days, there are families out there just trying to get by — and they’re not thinking about turkey naps or stuffing round two. They’re thinking about the numbers. They’re thinking about the bill.

    They’re thinking, How do I make a holiday out of what I can barely make a Tuesday out of?

    And if you listen closely — not to the news, not to the politicians, but to the people — you’ll hear a quiet truth humming beneath everything:

    It’s not that we don’t want the feast.

    It’s that the money we have says something different.

    I’ve walked through enough store aisles to know that holiday displays can feel like a taunt when your pockets aren’t lined the same way they used to be. The mountain of canned cranberry sauce. The towers of boxed stuffing. The frozen turkeys, which appear to be sagging inside their plastic, as if exhausted from waiting for a family that can afford them.

    And behind those shelves, somewhere in line, is a parent calculating the cost of every side dish.

    Someone is silently deciding between a whole bird and a pack of legs.

    Someone choosing between dessert and a few extra days of groceries.

    There is a shame that creeps in when the holiday table doesn’t look like the commercials — a quiet ache, the kind you don’t talk about.

    But I want to tell you something that the world doesn’t say loud enough:

    You can still have a good Thanksgiving.

    Even when money is tight.

    Even when the table looks different.

    Even when the feast you imagined is scaled down into something far smaller, far simpler — far more honest.

    It might not knock you into a coma.

    It might not leave leftovers for three days.

    It might not impress anyone scrolling past your photos.

    But it can give you something else.

    Something quieter.

    Something deeper.

    Something people forget to be thankful for.

    It can give you presence.

    It can give you a connection.

    It can give you the kind of memory that doesn’t need gravy to feel full.

    I’ve eaten my fair share of big meals — the kind that leave you leaning back, hands on your stomach, laughing because there’s nothing left to do but submit to gravity. But I’ve also eaten the small ones, the humble plates made from what a household could scrape together. And here’s what I’ve learned watching families stretch a dollar and a dream across a table:

    The memories that stay with you aren’t always the ones built from abundance.

    Sometimes they’re carved from scarcity.

    Sometimes they’re shaped from the simple miracle of still being together.

    A roasted chicken instead of a turkey.

    Cornbread instead of rolls.

    Canned green beans dressed up with whatever you had in the pantry.

    A pie made with Cool Whip because heavy cream was too high this year.

    Small things.

    Humble things.

    Real things.

    People think a holiday is about the menu — but Thanksgiving, at its best, has always been about survival.

    About making it through another year.

    About holding close the people who made the hard days bearable.

    About honoring the hands that cooked, even when the fridge was nearly empty.

    There are families right now who are living that truth, whether they wanted to or not.

    So if this year your table is smaller…

    If the plates are fewer…

    If the meal is simpler…

    If the turkey is swapped for something that fits the math…

    Please know this:

    You still deserve Thanksgiving.

    Not the performance of it — the heart of it.

    There is dignity in doing the best you can with what you have.

    There is grace in making enough when resources are scarce.

    There is courage in deciding that gratitude doesn’t have to be extravagant to be real.

    When you sit down to your meal — whether it’s a feast or a handful of comfort foods — take a breath. Look around. Feel the moment. Let it be enough. Let your presence be enough.

    Because long after the leftovers are gone, long after the dishes are washed, you won’t remember the price of the turkey.

    You’ll remember who sat with you.

    You’ll remember who you held close.

    You’ll remember that you made something out of nearly nothing — and that, in times like these, is its own kind of victory.

    This year, let Thanksgiving be less about the coma and more about the connection.

    Less about excess and more about enough.

    Less about the cost of the meal and more about the worth of the moment.

    When money is tight, meaning becomes easier to see.

    Sometimes that’s the gift we didn’t know we needed.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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  • The Shared Table – Eating Together in Hard Times

    The Shared Table – Eating Together in Hard Times

      I’ve written before about family-style restaurants, about Sunday dinners, and the long-lost art of staying at the table after the plates are cleared. The way the conversation lingers even after the food is gone. The way silence settles differently when you’re not alone.

    But the older I get, the more I realize there are seasons in life when once a week isn’t enough. When being with family or people who feel like family isn’t just tradition — it’s survival.

    There are cultures where no one ever really leaves. Even after marriage, generations live under the same roof. They eat together, pray together, argue in the hallway, and make up around the stove. Grandparents pass down stories across the dinner table, not through group chats. Aunties and uncles drift in and out like weather systems. There’s always somebody home, always another chair, always another plate.

    From the outside, we look at those households and say, “Too crowded. Too dependent.”

    But they thrive anyway.

    Children grow up knowing they’re held by more than one pair of hands.

    Elders age, knowing they are still seen, still needed.

    Nobody has to pretend they’re an island.

    Is that really so bad?

    Here in the United States, we’re taught to crave distance like oxygen. We can’t wait to get out on our own, can’t wait to prove we’re independent, self-sufficient, “grown.” We call it freedom, and some of it is. There is something sacred about carving out your own life. But somewhere along the way, we confused independence with isolation. We decided that to stand tall, we had to stand alone.

    In our thirst for independence, a lot of us burned the bridges back home. We said things we can’t unsay. Rolled our eyes one too many times. Took the help, then resented the hands that gave it. Some parents, carrying their own ghosts, pushed their kids out into the world with a kind of hard love: sink or swim. Some kids, desperate to prove themselves, jumped before they could walk steadily.

    Some landed on their feet. The parents took the credit.

    Others didn’t land at all. They slipped through the cracks — a missed paycheck here, a bad relationship there, a layoff at the worst possible time. Some ended up in shelters, while others slept in cars, bounced from couch to couch, or lived on the street with their whole life zipped into a backpack.

    We tell ourselves that’s just how it goes. That everyone has a choice. That if they really wanted to, they’d “get back on their feet.”

    But people don’t fall apart all at once.

    They unravel slowly, thread by thread, often in silence.

    I understand this better than most.

    I was one of those people — feeling unwelcome in my own family home, trying to breathe in a house that felt too tight, too tense, too full of things nobody would say out loud. At seventeen, I signed my name on a line and left for the Army with no real plan, no sense of direction — just a vague conviction that I had to go. I didn’t know what I was chasing. I only knew what I was running from.

    I’ve been on my own ever since, making my own decisions. Some good, some bad, some I still feel in my bones. I burned bridges, too. Spoke out of anger. Walked away instead of talking it through. Convinced myself I didn’t need anyone. That needing people was a weakness.

    You tell yourself stories like that long enough, and they start to sound like the truth.

    Now I work with people who have quietly invited me into their lives.

    Co-workers. Friends. Families who say, “Come over, we’re having dinner,” and mean it.

    I’ve sat at their tables — fork in hand — watching the choreography of people who have stayed close to one another. Kids interrupting adults. Adults interrupting each other. Someone’s cousin is laughing too loudly. A grandmother fussing over whether you’ve eaten enough.

    And in those moments, I am both present and somewhere else. I’m looking at the food, but I’m also looking at the thing beneath it — the web of relationships, the unspoken history, the familiar arguments, the small forgivenesses that happen without a word.

    And what would it have been like to have that with a family of my own?

    Not just a Sunday call.

    Not just a holiday visit.

    But the everyday kind of belonging — the weeknight dinners with nothing to celebrate except the fact that you’re together.

    I wonder who I might have been if I had grown up with more chairs around the table, more chances to stay instead of run.

    That wondering doesn’t come from regret.

    It comes from recognition.

    Recognition of what connection can do — how it steadies you, how it humbles you, how it reminds you that you were never meant to go through life alone.

    The shared table is one of the last places in this country where we still practice that truth.

    When times get hard — when prices climb, when paychecks shrink, when systems fail — the table becomes a kind of refuge. It’s where someone decides to make a large pot of something that can be shared and enjoyed over time. Where cousins and neighbors and strays-who-became-family show up with whatever they have: a dish, a drink, a story, their tired selves. It’s where nobody asks for a résumé, just whether you’re hungry.

    I’ve written about food banks, church kitchens, and community centers — places where people line up for a hot meal and leave with more than calories. They leave with eye contact. With their name spoken kindly. With the knowledge that, at least for today, they were not invisible.

    Hunger isolates.

    But eating together does the opposite.

    Screens are always on, but doors often stay closed.

    We scroll through a thousand dinners while our own table stays dark.

    Meanwhile, someone in your neighborhood — maybe even someone you know — would show up if they knew you needed a place to sit.

    But somewhere along the way, we stopped knocking on doors.

    We stopped saying, “Come eat with us.”

    I wish I knew how to fix all of this — the homelessness, the hungry children, the broken families, the pride that keeps us apart. I don’t. I don’t have a blueprint for repairing what this culture has spent decades tearing down.

    What I do have is a small, stubborn belief in the power of the shared table.

    Maybe the first step isn’t policy or program — but an invitation.

    Maybe it’s offering help without attaching shame.

    Maybe it’s calling the kid you pushed out too soon and saying, “Do you want to come home for dinner?”

    Maybe it’s reaching out to the parent you’ve avoided and whispering, “Can we try again over a meal?”

    Maybe it’s rebuilding a bridge you thought was ash — not because you’re guaranteed a reunion, but because you believe someone might want to come back one day.

    One thing I do believe, deeply and without hesitation, is this:

    Families are better together.

    Whether they’re the ones we come from or the ones we gather along the way.

    The table won’t fix everything.

    It won’t erase history, won’t undo every mistake, won’t silence every hurt.

    But it is a place to start.

    A place where pride softens.

    Where hunger — for food, for belonging, for forgiveness — can finally speak.

    The table doesn’t have to be full to matter.

    It just has to be real.

    It just has to be offered.

    It just has to be shared.

    Kyle J. Hayes

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