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New Mexican Red Chile Brownies: A Little Heat for a Cold Day
Rich chocolate, a little New Mexican red chile, and one cook stepping outside his comfort zone.

I can cook pretty well. At least, that’s what I tell myself, and so far, nobody has filed a formal complaint.

Give me a skillet, a few ingredients, and a little time, and I can usually figure something out. I know how to adjust seasoning, rescue a sauce, and recognize when something needs a few more minutes on the stove.

Baking, however, is another matter entirely.

Cooking allows for a little improvisation. A pinch of this, a splash of that, and occasionally a prayer. Baking seems to require an understanding of chemistry and mathematics, and a willingness to follow instructions without arguing.

That last part might be my biggest problem.

But fall has arrived in New Mexico, bringing cooler mornings, shorter days, and the annual reminder that I am apparently not built for cold weather.

Some people welcome the chill. They open their windows, put on a light sweater, and talk about how refreshing the air feels.

I start looking for another blanket.

And while a good bowl of red chile can warm you from the inside out, I began wondering whether that same New Mexican warmth might find its way into something sweet.

Which brings me to brownies.

Now, chocolate and chile might sound like an unusual combination to some people, but the two have a long history together. And here in New Mexico, where red and green chile are practically family, adding a little chile to dessert doesn’t seem all that unreasonable.

Besides, if we’re willing to put red chile on just about everything else, why should chocolate get special treatment?

I usually bake and cook with sugar substitutes, including monk fruit and brown sugar alternatives. But since I’ll probably be giving most of these brownies away, I decided to use regular sugar this time.

Consider it an act of generosity.

Or perhaps an opportunity to let someone else deal with the calories.

Either way, these brownies are my small salute to New Mexico: rich chocolate, a little cinnamon, and enough red chile to remind you where you are without making you reach for a glass of water.

And if they turn out well, I’ll happily accept the compliments.

If they don’t, we may never speak of this again.

A Few Decisions Before the Baking Began

Now, I could tell you that I carefully selected every ingredient for these brownies, but that wouldn’t be entirely true.

The chocolate chips were already in my kitchen, so I used those. They’re Lily’s Dark Chocolate Style Baking Chips, with no added sugar. I figured there was no reason to buy more chocolate when I already had some perfectly good chocolate on hand.

The red chile, however, was another matter.

I chose Loma Vista Hot Red Chile Powder. Not mild. Not medium. Hot.

And I used a full teaspoon.

I suppose I could have gone with something milder, especially since I plan to give some of these brownies away.

But apparently, the New Mexican in me wasn’t willing to entertain that possibility.

We’ll see whether that was confidence or poor judgment once the brownies come out of the oven.

New Mexican Red Chile Brownies

Prep Time: 15 minutes

Bake Time: 25–32 minutes

Cooling Time: Approximately 1 hour

Total Time: Approximately 1 hour 45 minutes

Servings: 9 large or 16 smaller brownies

Oven Temperature: 350°F (175°C)

Baking Pan: 8 × 8 inches

Ingredients

For the Brownies
- ½ cup (1 stick) unsalted butter
- 4 ounces Lily’s Dark Chocolate Style Baking Chips (or semisweet chocolate)
- ¾ cup granulated sugar
- ¼ cup packed dark brown sugar
- 2 large eggs, room temperature
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- ¾ cup all-purpose flour
- ¼ cup Ghirardelli unsweetened cocoa powder
- ¼ teaspoon sea salt
- ½ teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1 full teaspoon Loma Vista Hot Red Chile Powder
Optional Chocolate Ganache
- 3 ounces semisweet chocolate, chopped
- ¼ cup heavy cream
- A small pinch of New Mexican red chile powder
- Flaky sea salt, for finishing
A Little Warning About the Chile

Before you reach into your spice cabinet, know this.

New Mexican red chile powder and the chili powder commonly found in grocery stores aren’t necessarily the same.

Pure New Mexican red chile powder is made from dried, ground red chile peppers. The more common chili powder is often a seasoning blend containing cumin, garlic, oregano, and other spices.

Both have their place in the kitchen, but only one belongs in these brownies.

Trust me, nobody wants to bite into a chocolate brownie and wonder why it tastes like a bowl of chili.

For this recipe, use pure New Mexican red chile powder, not a chili seasoning blend.

Instructions

1. Prepare the Oven and Pan

Preheat your oven to 350°F.

Line an 8 × 8-inch baking pan with parchment paper, leaving a little extra hanging over the sides. This will make removing the brownies easier once they’ve cooled.

Lightly grease any exposed sides of the pan.

2. Melt the Chocolate and Butter

In a microwave-safe bowl, combine the butter and Lily’s Dark Chocolate Style Baking Chips.

Microwave in 15–20-second intervals, stirring between each, until the chocolate mixture is melted and smooth. Sugar-free chocolate chips can melt differently from conventional chocolate, so use gentle heat and avoid overheating.

You can also use a double boiler if you prefer.

Set the chocolate mixture aside to cool slightly.

3. Mix the Sugars and Eggs

In a large mixing bowl, combine the granulated sugar, dark brown sugar, eggs, and vanilla extract.

Whisk for approximately 1–2 minutes, until the mixture becomes slightly thickened and well combined.

4. Add the Chocolate

Slowly pour the melted chocolate mixture into the egg mixture, whisking gently until everything is smooth and glossy.

Make sure the chocolate isn’t too hot. We’re making brownies, not scrambled eggs.

5. Combine the Dry Ingredients

In a separate bowl, whisk together the flour, cocoa powder, salt, cinnamon, and Loma Vista Hot Red Chile Powder.

Mix until the ingredients are evenly distributed.

And yes, that’s one full teaspoon of hot red chile.

Apparently, we’re committed now.

6. Make the Brownie Batter

Gradually fold the dry ingredients into the chocolate mixture using a spatula.

Stir just until the flour disappears.

Avoid overmixing. It can make the brownies tougher and less fudgy.

7. Bake

Pour the batter into your prepared pan and spread it evenly.

Bake for approximately 25–32 minutes.

The edges should appear set, while the center should remain slightly soft. A toothpick inserted near the center should come out with moist crumbs, not wet batter.

Remember, brownies continue to firm up as they cool.

8. Cool and Slice

Let the brownies cool completely in the pan before lifting them out with the parchment paper.

Cut into 9 large squares or 16 smaller portions.

For cleaner slices, wipe your knife between cuts.

Optional Chocolate Ganache

For a richer finish, prepare a simple chocolate ganache.

Heat the heavy cream until steaming, but not boiling.

Pour the warm cream over the chopped chocolate and let it sit for about 2 minutes.

Stir until smooth, then add a tiny pinch of New Mexican red chile powder.

Spread the ganache over the cooled brownies and finish with a light sprinkle of flaky sea salt.

Allow the topping to set before slicing.

A Few Notes From My Kitchen

Choose the Right Red Chile

For these brownies, I used Loma Vista Hot Red Chile Powder, keeping things close to home and giving this chocolate dessert a little New Mexican character.

One thing to remember: pure New Mexican red chile powder isn’t the same as the chili powder seasoning blend you find in grocery stores. Those blends often contain cumin, garlic, oregano, and other spices.

There’s nothing wrong with those seasonings, but they have no business showing up uninvited in my brownies.

If you can’t find Loma Vista, another pure New Mexican red chile powder will work. Just watch the heat level, since not all red chile powders are created equal.

We’re looking for a little warmth, not a reason to call the fire department.

How Much Heat?

I used one full teaspoon of Loma Vista Hot Red Chile Powder.

If you prefer a gentler introduction to New Mexican red chile, start with ½ teaspoon.

For those who enjoy a stronger chile flavor, you can adjust the amount in future batches.

Remember that chile powders vary in heat, so what tastes pleasantly warm to one person might be much hotter to someone else.

About the Chocolate

I used Lily’s Dark Chocolate Style Baking Chips because I already had them on hand.

They’re made without added sugar, but that doesn’t make this a sugar-free brownie. The recipe still contains regular granulated and dark brown sugar.

You can substitute conventional semisweet chocolate if you prefer. The sweetness and texture may vary slightly.

Don’t Overbake

The difference between a fudgy brownie and a dry one can be just a few minutes.

Begin checking around the 25-minute mark.

Let Them Cool

I know. Waiting is difficult.

But cutting brownies while they’re still hot can leave you with a delicious pile of chocolate crumbs instead of neat squares.

Give them time.

Storage

Store the plain brownies in an airtight container at room temperature for up to 3 days, or refrigerate for up to 5 days.

Refrigerate brownies topped with cream ganache in an airtight container and enjoy within 4 days.

Allow refrigerated brownies to sit at room temperature briefly before serving for the best texture.

The Verdict: Oh My God!

So, I made the New Mexican Red Chile Brownies.

I’ve shared the recipe and the photographs, and by now, some of you may be wondering how they actually taste.

Well, I just had my first one.

And let me tell you something.

I stopped what I was doing and said, “Oh my God!”

Not quietly, either.

The texture was somewhere between cakey and fudgy. Not too dense, not too light, but somewhere in that wonderful middle where a brownie seems to have figured out exactly what it wants to be.

The sweetness was just right.

For a moment, I was so absorbed in the chocolate that I almost forgot the other ingredient.

Then it happened.

The red chile arrived.

Not with a dramatic entrance. No fireworks, no emergency glass of milk, and certainly no regrets about using the hot variety.

Just a gentle warmth that followed the sweetness, slowly making itself known.

It wasn’t overpowering. It didn’t compete with the chocolate or try to steal the show.

It was simply there, reminding me that it had been invited for a reason.

And it was an important part of the party.

I wondered whether using a full teaspoon of Loma Vista Hot Red Chile Powder would be a mistake.

Apparently, the New Mexican in me knew exactly what he was doing.

Now, I’m not going to pretend that one successful batch of brownies has suddenly made me an accomplished baker.

But I will say this.

For someone who approaches baking with a little suspicion and a great deal of uncertainty, these brownies gave me a reason to reconsider our relationship.

And yes, I’ll be making them again.

Kyle J. Hayes

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October 16, 2026
Some Beauty Is Best Admired from the Ground

It’s Balloon Fiesta time in Albuquerque, and once again, the sky is giving people a reason to look up.

There is something wonderful about that. People stop what they are doing. Conversations pause. For a moment, whatever was demanding our attention has to compete with an enormous splash of color floating over the city.

I admire it. The balloons, certainly, but also the people who make it all possible.

The pilots. The ground crews. The vendors getting ready to feed people who have left their beds at an hour when breakfast feels like both a necessity and a reward. Everyone working behind the scenes, carrying equipment, preparing, organizing, and tending to details most of us will never notice.

We see something beautiful in the sky. Beneath it is a great deal of human effort.

I appreciate that. As someone who writes and cooks, I know the finished thing rarely tells the whole story of what it took to make it. People see the plate. They read the essay. They don’t necessarily see the preparation, the mistakes, or the work that happened before there was anything worth sharing.

Those balloons carry some of that invisible work.

And then, usually somewhere in the middle of my admiration, somebody asks:

“Have you gone up in one?”

“No.”

My answer comes quickly. No need to check my calendar.

I respect the people who pilot those balloons. I admire the people who climb into the baskets and trust the pilot, the equipment, and the wind. I understand that, for them, the experience might be peaceful, exhilarating, or something they will remember with joy for the rest of their lives.

I would remember it, too.

Peaceful is probably not the word I would use.

I do not like heights. I don’t even particularly like going into tall buildings. I can appreciate windows perfectly well from several feet away, preferably while seated.

And yes, I fly.

But flying involves prayer, proper medication, and a prolonged conversation between the part of me that knows airplanes can fly and the part of me that would like to know why we couldn’t have driven.

For me, the flight is a fairly constant feeling of terror until we land safely. Other people might settle in and enjoy a movie. I wait for the wheels to touch the Ground so my shoulders can return to their usual place.

So a basket beneath a balloon, moving with the wind?

I wish everybody a beautiful trip.

I will be down here.

There was a time when admitting something like that might have felt a little embarrassing. We hear so much about facing our fears, pushing our limits, and saying yes to experiences that frighten us. Sometimes that advice is useful. Some things are worth doing even when our hands shake.

Sharing a piece of writing that reveals more than we intended. Beginning again after disappointment. Having a conversation we have spent years avoiding.

I have fears I need to work through because something meaningful waits on the other side.

But I have never stood beneath a hot-air balloon and felt that my unfinished life was waiting in its basket.

What I feel is admiration. Curiosity. Pleasure in watching something extraordinary.

And I am comfortable with that.

Getting older has made me more honest about what I enjoy and what I merely feel expected to enjoy. There is a certain relief in appreciating someone else’s experience without needing to have it yourself.

I can listen when they describe the view. I can enjoy their photographs. I can be glad they went and glad they came back with a story to tell.

My own enjoyment begins with both feet on the Ground.

From here, I can watch the colors move across the sky. I can think about the skill it takes to guide those balloons and the trust it takes to ride in them. I can appreciate the crews whose work allows the rest of us to stand around looking amazed.

There is plenty to see from where I am.

And perhaps that is part of what I love about the Fiesta: so many people contributing something different to the same occasion. Some fly. Some help them rise. Some feed the crowd. Some simply look up, grateful that somebody went to all this trouble to put a little wonder into the morning.

I am happy to be among the people looking up.

So if you ask whether I have gone up in one, the answer will still be quick.

No.

But if you want someone to admire the balloons with you, appreciate the people who make them possible, and perhaps find a breakfast burrito afterward, I’m available.

You’ll know where to find me.

On the Ground, having a lovely time.

Kyle J. Hayes

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October 7, 2026
The Change-in-the-Weather Flu

Fall is here.

You can see it arriving before the temperature fully agrees.

Halloween decorations begin appearing on porches. Balloons drift across the morning sky. Grocery stores stack bags of freshly roasted green chile near the entrance, and the smell follows you all the way to the car.

Soon, there will be green chile stew.

There should always be green chile stew.

But for me, the changing season brings something else.

What I call the change-in-the-weather flu.

I know this is not an official medical diagnosis. No doctor has ever looked over a clipboard and solemnly announced that I have a severe case of autumn.

Still, I know what I feel.

The scratchy throat.

The stuffy head.

The sudden desire to remain on the couch and cancel every responsibility that requires shoes.

It seems to happen whenever the weather begins changing its mind. The afternoons are still warm, but the mornings have developed an attitude. You leave home dressed for summer and return wondering why you did not bring a jacket.

Mother Nature is rearranging the furniture.

My body notices.

Over the years, I have developed my own treatment plan.

It begins with homemade chicken soup.

Nothing elaborate. This is not the time for culinary ambition. The soup only needs to be hot, comforting, and able to make me believe I am taking care of myself.

Something about chicken soup feels older than medicine.

Maybe it is the steam rising from the bowl. Maybe it is the warmth settling into your chest. Maybe it is simply the memory of being cared for.

Sometimes comfort works because we remember it working before.

Then comes green tea with lemon and honey.

The honey soothes my throat. The lemon brings a little brightness. The warm cup gives my hands something to hold while I sit beneath a weighted blanket and consider whether I have the strength to choose another show.

I usually do.

Binge-watching is an important part of recovery.

The show does not have to be especially good. In fact, it may be better if it is not. A complicated plot requires attention, and I don’t have it when my head feels stuffed with cotton.

I need something familiar.

Something that will continue playing if I fall asleep halfway through and wake up three episodes later with no idea what happened.

The weighted blanket completes the prescription.

Something about its gentle pressure makes the couch feel less like a place where I have collapsed and more like a place where I have intentionally chosen to recover.

That distinction matters.

We sometimes treat rest as though it must be earned. We push ourselves until our bodies make the decision for us. Then we lie down reluctantly, still thinking about everything we should be doing.

But the changing seasons offer their own instruction.

Slow down.

Make something warm.

Pull the blanket a little higher.

Let the world continue without your supervision for an afternoon.

Perhaps my change-in-the-weather flu is simply Mother Nature’s way of telling me that summer is over.

The long days are shortening. The air is cooling. The season of open windows and cold drinks is giving way to soup, tea, blankets, and the quiet comfort of staying home.

Outside, the balloons will rise.

The Halloween decorations will multiply.

Somewhere, someone will begin making the first pot of green chile stew.

And I will be on the couch with my tea, my soup, and my weighted blanket, accepting the message my body has been trying to deliver.

Fall has arrived.

Apparently, it would like me to sit down.

Kyle J. Hayes

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September 23, 2026
I Came for the Fair Food. I’m Glad I Went Anyway.

Today I went to the New Mexico State Fair.

I have written before about how much effort it can take to just go outside. Crowds add another layer. They gather somewhere, and I consider going somewhere else.

Lately, I have been trying to renegotiate that arrangement.

There are things I want to see, places I want to go, and afternoons I would like to have without first calculating how many other people might be having them. I am not expecting to become someone who enjoys standing shoulder to shoulder with strangers. I would just like a little more say in where I spend my day.

So I went early.

Almost at opening, with rain coming down and most children still in school. I had purchased a five-dollar flash-sale ticket that morning. One day only. Use it today.

Apparently, even my reluctance has a price.

Five dollars got the conversation started.

The accessible parking was free and fairly close to the entrance, which I appreciated. When walking requires some thought, the distance between your car and where you are going becomes part of the outing before it begins. Having that part be manageable made it easier to enjoy what came next.

I entered without the usual wall of people.

There was room to walk. Room to stop and look without feeling that I was obstructing someone else’s afternoon. The rain had made the day less attractive to some people and a little more possible for me.

I was grateful for that.

The rides looked good. The people on them appeared to be having a wonderful time, which is exactly where I prefer my amusement-park excitement: happening to other people.

I watched from the ground.

There were T-shirt vendors everywhere. Plenty to look at. Bright signs announcing things that could be fried, things that could be put on a stick, and things someone had apparently decided needed both.

But I had come for one thing.

Fair Food.

There is a particular optimism involved in arriving at a fair hungry. You imagine that somewhere between the entrance and the Ferris wheel, someone is preparing something that will justify the price, the walk, and whatever conversation you later have with yourself about your choices.

I looked at the photographs on the booths. I looked at the food people were carrying. I walked and waited for something to call my name.

Nothing did.

That surprised me.

At my age, I have been to quite a few fairs. I have eaten quite a bit of fair Food. Perhaps some of what I once experienced as excitement was simply the pleasure of encountering something for the first time.

You cannot ask every afternoon to give you that again.

Still, I was willing to let lunch try.

I found a stand selling Alligator on a stick and deep-fried boudin balls. That seemed promising. Two foods I associate with Louisiana, a place whose cooking has never suggested to me that seasoning should be approached with fear.

I ordered both, found somewhere to sit, and ate.

Or, more accurately, I began looking for the flavor.

Both tasted unseasoned to me. There was the Food itself, the fried coating, the expectation of something that should have arrived with it.

I kept waiting.

Louisiana would be disappointed.

I wondered whether anyone cooking those dishes had ever lived there. That was my disappointed appetite talking; I had no way of knowing. All I could say was that the Louisiana I expected to taste hadn’t made it into my order.

Food carries a place into rooms that place will never see. Someone takes a bite and forms an impression. Of a kitchen. Of a region. Sometimes of people they have never met.

That is a considerable responsibility for a paper tray.

I don’t expect a fair booth to reproduce somebody’s grandmother’s kitchen. I know there is work behind that counter, and I know a disappointing meal does not tell me everything about the person who prepared it.

But I had hoped for more than the shape of the thing.

I wanted the seasoning.

I ate both dishes anyway.

Then I stood up and wondered how two small portions had made me feel as though I had gained twenty pounds.

There should have been more pleasure involved in feeling that full.

I kept walking.

After a while, that familiar feeling began settling over the afternoon.

Been here. Seen this. Done that.

It is an easy conclusion to reach as you get older. Sometimes it is accurate. Sometimes you really have seen enough T-shirts and fried Food for one day.

But I wonder how often familiarity makes us stop looking before we are finished seeing.

I had arrived with an idea of what would make the trip worthwhile. The Food was supposed to be the reward for getting myself out of the house and through the entrance. When it disappointed me, I was beginning to let it speak for the whole Fair.

Then I saw the African American Pavilion Art Gallery.

I had never been inside.

In the middle of all that feeling that I had already done everything, there was a place I had yet to explore.

I did not go inside today. I plan to visit soon and give it time, attention, and an essay of its own here on Salt, Ink & Soul.

But noticing it interrupted my mood. I had been walking around thinking about how familiar everything felt, and here was something I still knew so little about.

I could leave the rides to the people enjoying them. I could decide the boudin balls had let me down. Still, there was a reason to come back.

And nearby, something else caught my attention.

A prominent marijuana dispensary had set up a tent.

At the New Mexico State Fair.

I smiled.

I do not partake. I had no plans to start. But there was something quietly amusing about seeing that business with a booth among the other businesses, participating in the ordinary machinery of a fair.

I have lived long enough for that sight to surprise me.

No purchase was necessary. I could simply stand there and notice how much the scenery had changed.

A few minutes earlier, I had been thinking I had seen it all.

Apparently, I had not.

I would have preferred better Food. Let the record show that I have not become so philosophical that seasoning no longer matters.

But I was glad I went.

I had found a way to be somewhere that could make me uncomfortable. I had given myself an early start, a quieter entrance, and permission to enjoy the day at my own pace.

For once, the crowd had not made the decision.

I had.

And somewhere between a disappointing lunch and making a plan to return, I stopped deciding what the afternoon should be.

I looked around.

Kyle J. Hayes

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September 16, 2026
A Long Way from Canned Tamales

Whenever I travel outside the Southwest, someone eventually asks.

“Do you want to go out for Mexican food?”

They mean it kindly.

They are trying to offer me something familiar. Something they believe might remind me of home.

And my answer is almost always no.

Not because I dislike Mexican food.

Because I have learned to love it too much.

I am spoiled now.

There are things you can unlearn. Facts you can forget. Names that slip loose from memory. Roads that disappear after enough years away.

But once you have eaten certain foods prepared in certain places, your mouth becomes an unreliable diplomat.

It no longer wishes to be polite.

Before I moved west, Mexican food mostly meant Taco Bell.

This is not an insult to Taco Bell. Taco Bell has been there for many of us at times when few others were willing to answer the call. It has fed college students, night-shift workers, road-weary travelers, and people who suddenly discovered at 11:43 p.m. that they had made no plans for dinner.

There is nothing wrong with that.

But a considerable distance separates a drive-through taco from somebody’s grandmother standing over a pot that has been simmering since morning.

Before the Southwest, I did not understand that distance.

My earliest knowledge of tamales came from a can.

Hormel tamales.

Wrapped in paper.

Yes, paper.

Whenever I tell people this, I have to stop and explain because they look at me as if I have confessed that my family ate soup with a fork.

But they existed.

You opened the can, slid out a stack of soft cylinders covered in sauce, and peeled the paper from each one. There was no corn husk. No assembly line of aunties around a kitchen table. No family recipe guarded more carefully than a Social Security number.

Just a can.

And paper.

I ate them without complaint because children rarely question the borders of the world they inherit. If the can said tamales, then tamales were what they were.

We believe many things simply because no one has yet taken us somewhere better.

Arizona was my first real experience with Mexican food—not the idea of it, not the national chain interpretation, but food connected to people, place, heat, memory, and migration.

The flavors were brighter than I expected. The chiles carried more than pain. The tortillas were not merely edible plates designed to keep your hands clean. They had texture. Warmth. A life before they reached the table.

I began to understand that salsa was not just a thing in a jar.

This felt important.

Some salsa announced itself with tomatoes and freshness. Some arrived dark and smoky. Some offered a gentle handshake before setting fire to the furniture.

You learned to respect them all.

Then there was Texas.

I had Mexican food there too, although Tex-Mex is its own country with its own laws. Cheese appears to hold elected office. Cumin has voting rights. Plates arrive carrying enough food to make you reconsider whatever plans you had for the afternoon.

It is not lesser.

It is simply itself.

That distinction matters because we have a habit in this country of flattening other people’s food. We take cuisines with regions, histories, arguments, migrations, and generations of memory, then place them beneath one convenient name.

Mexican food.

As if Mexico were not an enormous nation.

As if the border had not moved.

As if families had not carried recipes across it.

As if Indigenous traditions, Spanish colonization, African influence, geography, poverty, ingenuity, and survival had not all left fingerprints on the plate.

Then I came to New Mexico.

New Mexican food is also its own thing.

People unfamiliar with it sometimes mistake that statement for regional pride.

It is regional pride.

But it is also true.

Here, chile isn’t merely something added to food. Chile is a declaration of citizenship. Red or green is not a casual question. It is an inquiry into your character.

“Christmas” is an acceptable answer, though it can feel like refusing to choose sides in a family argument.

After enough years of eating this way, something happens.

Your standards change.

Not because you become sophisticated. I remain a man who can remember canned tamales with something dangerously close to affection. We should never become so refined that we start lying about where we came from.

But experience widens the world.

You learn the difference between heat and flavor. You learn that a dish can be spicy without being cruel. You learn the difference between a freshly made tortilla and one that came off a factory line.

You learn that food tastes different when it belongs where it is being served.

That may be why I hesitate when someone outside the Southwest asks if I want Mexican food.

I know they are being hospitable.

I also know someone in the kitchen might be preparing to place shredded lettuce, cold tomatoes, and orange cheese inside a hard shell, then charge eighteen dollars for the experience.

I can’t do it.

Not when I know what is waiting for me back home.

This is one of the quieter ways a place claims you.

We often think of home as the place where we were born, where our family lives, or where we made our oldest memories. But sometimes home is also the place that taught us what something is supposed to taste like.

I did not grow up in the Southwest.

I came here carrying other foods, other memories, other definitions. I came from a world where tamales emerged from a can wearing little paper coats.

The Southwest did not erase that boy.

It fed him.

Phoenix introduced him to something larger. Texas showed him another variation. Albuquerque gave him red chile, green chile, stacked enchiladas, warm sopaipillas, and the understanding that cuisine is not a fixed object. It is a living record of who remained, who arrived, what survived, and what people learned to make together.

Food does that.

It enters through the mouth and quietly rearranges the heart.

So when I travel, and someone asks whether I want Mexican food, my refusal may sound arrogant.

It is not meant that way.

It is the caution of a man who has seen too much.

I have smelled chile roasting beneath the New Mexico sky. I have eaten tortillas that arrived warm and soft, carrying the small imperfections that reveal the presence of human hands. I have watched people debate red and green with the seriousness normally reserved for theology and football.

There are some disappointments a person should avoid when he can.

I would rather eat what the place I am visiting does well. Give me its neighborhood restaurant. Its old diner. Its beloved sandwich. Give me the dish the locals defend when outsiders make jokes about it.

I will meet that place through its own food.

Then, when I return to Albuquerque, I will order my enchiladas.

Maybe Christmas.

And I will think, with gratitude, of the strange journey that carried me from Taco Bell, through the canned tamales wrapped in paper, and into a life where I know better.

Not better than other people.

Just better than to order Mexican food too far from home.

Kyle J. Hayes

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September 11, 2026
You Know Fall Is Coming When the Balloons Go Up

I grew up in the Midwest, where fall knew how to make an entrance.

The trees announced it.

Green gave way to yellow, orange, and red, as though the whole landscape had decided to burn beautifully before going quiet. Then the leaves began to fall, collecting along curbs and sidewalks, gathering beneath tires, crunching under your feet.

You didn’t have to wonder whether the season was changing.

All you had to do was look.

New Mexico is different.

Here, fall arrives a little more quietly.

At first, it is something in the morning air.

Not cold exactly.

Just cooler.

Enough that when you step outside early, you notice. Enough that you remember there will eventually come a morning when you will need a jacket.

Then comes the smell.

Green chile roasting.

If you have lived here long enough, you know the smell before you see the roaster.

Smoke and chile and flame carried through a grocery store parking lot. Those big metal drums turning over fire while people stand nearby, waiting for bags of roasted chile still warm enough to steam.

And naturally, there are decisions to make.

Where are you buying yours this year?

Who has the best chile?

More importantly:

Who has the hot stuff?

Not the chile somebody politely described as hot.

The chile that makes you reconsider your confidence about halfway through dinner.

These are serious questions.

Or at least we treat them that way.

And while you’re thinking about chile, while the morning is still cool and the smell of roasting peppers is floating through the air, you happen to look up.

And there they are.

The balloons are up.

I have lived here for years.

Long enough that none of this should surprise me anymore.

But I still look.

I still stop.

I still reach for my phone.

I still take pictures.

There is something wonderfully impractical about a hot-air balloon.

It doesn’t rush.

It doesn’t seem particularly concerned about productivity.

It just floats.

A splash of color moving slowly across a blue New Mexico sky while the rest of us are down here trying to get somewhere on time.

Maybe that’s part of why I still look.

We spend so much of our lives training ourselves not to be impressed.

We get used to things.

The mountain becomes the mountain.

The sunset becomes another sunset.

The strange and beautiful thing we once stopped to admire becomes part of the scenery we pass without noticing.

Familiarity can be a kind of blindness.

I don’t want that.

I don’t ever want to live somewhere so long that beauty becomes furniture.

So I take another picture of a balloon.

Even though I already have plenty.

Probably too many.

Maybe that’s all right.

Growing up, autumn meant leaves.

Here, it means something else.

Cool mornings.

Green chile.

Balloons.

Different signs for the same ancient turning.

And maybe that is one of the quiet things a place teaches you when you stay long enough.

You arrive with one definition of how the world is supposed to work.

Then life gives you another.

You learn that fall does not require red maple leaves.

Home does not require the landscape where you were born.

Tradition does not always have to be inherited.

Sometimes you live somewhere long enough that new rituals begin attaching themselves to you.

You don’t notice it happening.

Until one morning you smell chile roasting and think:

It’s that time again.

Until you see the first balloons and instinctively reach for your phone.

Until something that once belonged to somebody else’s place has quietly become part of your own calendar.

Maybe belonging happens that way.

Not with an announcement.

Not with a ceremony.

Just repetition.

One season after another.

One familiar smell.

One cooler morning.

One balloon drifting overhead.

And a person standing beneath it who has seen this many times before—

and still looks up.

Kyle J. Hayes

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September 4, 2026
If You Could Live Anywhere in the World, Where Would It Be?

If I could live anywhere in the world, I would still choose Albuquerque.

And I am proud to say that.

I know that might sound strange to some people.

There are places with bigger skylines.

Places with more water.

Places people put on postcards, bucket lists, and travel shows.

But I have lived in different places around the world, and sometimes the place you choose says more than the place you came from.

I was raised in the Midwest.

That part of the country has its own beauty. Its own rhythm. Its own kind of strength. But it is also the home of tornado alley, and I learned early that I do not need the sky turning dark and angry above me to feel alive.

I am not a fan of hurricanes.

I am not a fan of earthquakes either.

Yes, I know New Mexico has earthquakes, but not like the West Coast. And yes, we have monsoon season, but to me, that does not compare to the hurricanes of the East Coast.

The constant rain of the Northwest would be too much for me.

Some people need green everywhere.

Some people need water close enough to hear it.

I understand that.

But I have fallen in love with the high desert.

There is something about the open sky here.

Something about the mountains standing in the distance like witnesses.

Something about the way the light changes everything it touches.

Albuquerque has a quiet honesty to it. It does not try too hard to convince you of what it is. It simply is.

There is beauty in that.

There is also the food.

The kind of food that does not feel like decoration, but memory. Food with heat, history, and personality. Food that tells you where you are before anyone says a word.

Green chile does that.

Red chile does that.

A plate here can feel like a map.

A reminder that place is not just where you sleep at night. Place is what seasons you. What teaches your tongue. What slows your pace. What makes you look up and notice the sky.

I did not end up in Albuquerque by accident and stay by mistake.

I chose it.

And if I had to choose again, I would choose it again.

Not because it is perfect.

No place is.

But because it fits something in me.

The high desert has a way of making room for a person. It gives you space to think. Space to breathe. Space to become quieter without becoming smaller.

And maybe that is what home is after a while.

Not the place everyone else understands.

Not the place with the best reputation.

Not the place that looks most impressive from the outside.

But the place where your spirit unclenches.

The place where the weather, the food, the land, and the light begin to feel like part of your own language.

For me, that place is Albuquerque.

The high desert.

The mountains.

The chile.

The wide sky.

The quiet invitation to keep becoming.

Kyle J. Hayes

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June 29, 2026
Budget Thanksgiving — Making Enough

There’s a moment each year — usually sometime in the second week of November — when people start looking at the grocery flyers a little differently.

Not with excitement.

Not with the old holiday anticipation.

But with calculation.

We used to joke about Thanksgiving being the one meal that knocked you into a food coma, the sacred tradition of overeating as if it were part of the liturgy. But these days, there are families out there just trying to get by — and they’re not thinking about turkey naps or stuffing round two. They’re thinking about the numbers. They’re thinking about the bill.

They’re thinking, How do I make a holiday out of what I can barely make a Tuesday out of?

And if you listen closely — not to the news, not to the politicians, but to the people — you’ll hear a quiet truth humming beneath everything:

It’s not that we don’t want the feast.

It’s that the money we have says something different.

I’ve walked through enough store aisles to know that holiday displays can feel like a taunt when your pockets aren’t lined the same way they used to be. The mountain of canned cranberry sauce. The towers of boxed stuffing. The frozen turkeys, which appear to be sagging inside their plastic, as if exhausted from waiting for a family that can afford them.

And behind those shelves, somewhere in line, is a parent calculating the cost of every side dish.

Someone is silently deciding between a whole bird and a pack of legs.

Someone choosing between dessert and a few extra days of groceries.

There is a shame that creeps in when the holiday table doesn’t look like the commercials — a quiet ache, the kind you don’t talk about.

But I want to tell you something that the world doesn’t say loud enough:

You can still have a good Thanksgiving.

Even when money is tight.

Even when the table looks different.

Even when the feast you imagined is scaled down into something far smaller, far simpler — far more honest.

It might not knock you into a coma.

It might not leave leftovers for three days.

It might not impress anyone scrolling past your photos.

But it can give you something else.

Something quieter.

Something deeper.

Something people forget to be thankful for.

It can give you presence.

It can give you a connection.

It can give you the kind of memory that doesn’t need gravy to feel full.

I’ve eaten my fair share of big meals — the kind that leave you leaning back, hands on your stomach, laughing because there’s nothing left to do but submit to gravity. But I’ve also eaten the small ones, the humble plates made from what a household could scrape together. And here’s what I’ve learned watching families stretch a dollar and a dream across a table:

The memories that stay with you aren’t always the ones built from abundance.

Sometimes they’re carved from scarcity.

Sometimes they’re shaped from the simple miracle of still being together.

A roasted chicken instead of a turkey.

Cornbread instead of rolls.

Canned green beans dressed up with whatever you had in the pantry.

A pie made with Cool Whip because heavy cream was too high this year.

Small things.

Humble things.

Real things.

People think a holiday is about the menu — but Thanksgiving, at its best, has always been about survival.

About making it through another year.

About holding close the people who made the hard days bearable.

About honoring the hands that cooked, even when the fridge was nearly empty.

There are families right now who are living that truth, whether they wanted to or not.

So if this year your table is smaller…

If the plates are fewer…

If the meal is simpler…

If the turkey is swapped for something that fits the math…

Please know this:

You still deserve Thanksgiving.

Not the performance of it — the heart of it.

There is dignity in doing the best you can with what you have.

There is grace in making enough when resources are scarce.

There is courage in deciding that gratitude doesn’t have to be extravagant to be real.

When you sit down to your meal — whether it’s a feast or a handful of comfort foods — take a breath. Look around. Feel the moment. Let it be enough. Let your presence be enough.

Because long after the leftovers are gone, long after the dishes are washed, you won’t remember the price of the turkey.

You’ll remember who sat with you.

You’ll remember who you held close.

You’ll remember that you made something out of nearly nothing — and that, in times like these, is its own kind of victory.

This year, let Thanksgiving be less about the coma and more about the connection.

Less about excess and more about enough.

Less about the cost of the meal and more about the worth of the moment.

When money is tight, meaning becomes easier to see.

Sometimes that’s the gift we didn’t know we needed.

Kyle J. Hayes

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November 17, 2025
The Shared Table – Eating Together in Hard Times

I’ve written before about family-style restaurants, about Sunday dinners, and the long-lost art of staying at the table after the plates are cleared. The way the conversation lingers even after the food is gone. The way silence settles differently when you’re not alone.

But the older I get, the more I realize there are seasons in life when once a week isn’t enough. When being with family or people who feel like family isn’t just tradition — it’s survival.

There are cultures where no one ever really leaves. Even after marriage, generations live under the same roof. They eat together, pray together, argue in the hallway, and make up around the stove. Grandparents pass down stories across the dinner table, not through group chats. Aunties and uncles drift in and out like weather systems. There’s always somebody home, always another chair, always another plate.

From the outside, we look at those households and say, “Too crowded. Too dependent.”

But they thrive anyway.

Children grow up knowing they’re held by more than one pair of hands.

Elders age, knowing they are still seen, still needed.

Nobody has to pretend they’re an island.

Is that really so bad?

Here in the United States, we’re taught to crave distance like oxygen. We can’t wait to get out on our own, can’t wait to prove we’re independent, self-sufficient, “grown.” We call it freedom, and some of it is. There is something sacred about carving out your own life. But somewhere along the way, we confused independence with isolation. We decided that to stand tall, we had to stand alone.

In our thirst for independence, a lot of us burned the bridges back home. We said things we can’t unsay. Rolled our eyes one too many times. Took the help, then resented the hands that gave it. Some parents, carrying their own ghosts, pushed their kids out into the world with a kind of hard love: sink or swim. Some kids, desperate to prove themselves, jumped before they could walk steadily.

Some landed on their feet. The parents took the credit.

Others didn’t land at all. They slipped through the cracks — a missed paycheck here, a bad relationship there, a layoff at the worst possible time. Some ended up in shelters, while others slept in cars, bounced from couch to couch, or lived on the street with their whole life zipped into a backpack.

We tell ourselves that’s just how it goes. That everyone has a choice. That if they really wanted to, they’d “get back on their feet.”

But people don’t fall apart all at once.

They unravel slowly, thread by thread, often in silence.

I understand this better than most.

I was one of those people — feeling unwelcome in my own family home, trying to breathe in a house that felt too tight, too tense, too full of things nobody would say out loud. At seventeen, I signed my name on a line and left for the Army with no real plan, no sense of direction — just a vague conviction that I had to go. I didn’t know what I was chasing. I only knew what I was running from.

I’ve been on my own ever since, making my own decisions. Some good, some bad, some I still feel in my bones. I burned bridges, too. Spoke out of anger. Walked away instead of talking it through. Convinced myself I didn’t need anyone. That needing people was a weakness.

You tell yourself stories like that long enough, and they start to sound like the truth.

Now I work with people who have quietly invited me into their lives.

Co-workers. Friends. Families who say, “Come over, we’re having dinner,” and mean it.

I’ve sat at their tables — fork in hand — watching the choreography of people who have stayed close to one another. Kids interrupting adults. Adults interrupting each other. Someone’s cousin is laughing too loudly. A grandmother fussing over whether you’ve eaten enough.

And in those moments, I am both present and somewhere else. I’m looking at the food, but I’m also looking at the thing beneath it — the web of relationships, the unspoken history, the familiar arguments, the small forgivenesses that happen without a word.

And what would it have been like to have that with a family of my own?

Not just a Sunday call.

Not just a holiday visit.

But the everyday kind of belonging — the weeknight dinners with nothing to celebrate except the fact that you’re together.

I wonder who I might have been if I had grown up with more chairs around the table, more chances to stay instead of run.

That wondering doesn’t come from regret.

It comes from recognition.

Recognition of what connection can do — how it steadies you, how it humbles you, how it reminds you that you were never meant to go through life alone.

The shared table is one of the last places in this country where we still practice that truth.

When times get hard — when prices climb, when paychecks shrink, when systems fail — the table becomes a kind of refuge. It’s where someone decides to make a large pot of something that can be shared and enjoyed over time. Where cousins and neighbors and strays-who-became-family show up with whatever they have: a dish, a drink, a story, their tired selves. It’s where nobody asks for a résumé, just whether you’re hungry.

I’ve written about food banks, church kitchens, and community centers — places where people line up for a hot meal and leave with more than calories. They leave with eye contact. With their name spoken kindly. With the knowledge that, at least for today, they were not invisible.

Hunger isolates.

But eating together does the opposite.

Screens are always on, but doors often stay closed.

We scroll through a thousand dinners while our own table stays dark.

Meanwhile, someone in your neighborhood — maybe even someone you know — would show up if they knew you needed a place to sit.

But somewhere along the way, we stopped knocking on doors.

We stopped saying, “Come eat with us.”

I wish I knew how to fix all of this — the homelessness, the hungry children, the broken families, the pride that keeps us apart. I don’t. I don’t have a blueprint for repairing what this culture has spent decades tearing down.

What I do have is a small, stubborn belief in the power of the shared table.

Maybe the first step isn’t policy or program — but an invitation.

Maybe it’s offering help without attaching shame.

Maybe it’s calling the kid you pushed out too soon and saying, “Do you want to come home for dinner?”

Maybe it’s reaching out to the parent you’ve avoided and whispering, “Can we try again over a meal?”

Maybe it’s rebuilding a bridge you thought was ash — not because you’re guaranteed a reunion, but because you believe someone might want to come back one day.

One thing I do believe, deeply and without hesitation, is this:

Families are better together.

Whether they’re the ones we come from or the ones we gather along the way.

The table won’t fix everything.

It won’t erase history, won’t undo every mistake, won’t silence every hurt.

But it is a place to start.

A place where pride softens.

Where hunger — for food, for belonging, for forgiveness — can finally speak.

The table doesn’t have to be full to matter.

It just has to be real.

It just has to be offered.

It just has to be shared.

Kyle J. Hayes

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November 14, 2025
The Price of Hunger

I’ve been thinking about what things cost—and not the kind you swipe a card for. I mean the deep arithmetic of living in a country where a cell phone plan can be unlimited, but food is not. Where the signal is strong, but the pantry is weak. Where the glow of a screen lights up a car window because that car has become a home.

Almost everyone I know carries the world in their pocket. You can stream news of wars, scroll through lives curated to look full, and order meals you can’t afford to make. You can stay endlessly connected and still be utterly alone. The internet promised us closeness, but it delivered distraction. It can be a tool, yes—a way to organize, inform, share—but more often it steals the most human thing we have: presence.

We’ve mistaken communication for connection. And in the process, we’ve forgotten what togetherness feels like.

Yet hunger—real hunger—has a way of bringing humanity back into focus.

When the cupboards empty and the paychecks stop, when storms tear down homes or fires erase entire neighborhoods, something ancient stirs in us. The same thing that once made neighbors knock on doors with covered dishes, or gather in church basements with ladles and folding chairs. In the worst times, people still find their way to one another. Hunger is cruel, but it’s also clarifying. It reminds us that survival was never meant to be a solo act.

After disasters—after hurricanes, blackouts, floods—it’s always the same. People cook what’s left on their grills before the food spoils. They feed whoever shows up. They offer coffee, blankets, and soup. They don’t check a person’s party affiliation before pouring them a bowl. The same is true every day in quieter ways—at food banks, shelters, and community kitchens. The volunteers who show up to serve a hot meal aren’t there for headlines. They’re there because they remember what it’s like to need help.

That’s the part we don’t talk about enough. The grace in hunger. The way it exposes the seams of a society, yes, but also the threads that still hold it together.

We live in a nation where internet access is often cheaper than dinner. Where people can scroll for hours, but can’t afford eggs. Where the hunger of the people becomes another talking point, tossed around by politicians who will keep getting paid, even through shutdowns. They talk about “the economy” as if it were a creature separate from the hungry people. But I’ve never seen a spreadsheet feed a child.

This isn’t the first time America has been hungry. We’ve seen breadlines stretch through city blocks and soup kitchens spring up in church basements. The difference now is distance. We’ve grown disconnected—not just from each other, but from the skills and spirit that carried those before us through hard times. They knew how to make a little stretch far. They understood that sharing wasn’t charity—it was a matter of survival.

It may be time we remembered.

When I write about food, I’m not writing about recipes; I’m writing about ritual. The act of caring. The alchemy of turning scarcity into sustenance. Bread from four ingredients. Beans with patience and salt. Casseroles that forgive substitutions. Meals that stretch and still have enough to share. These are more than thrift; they’re gestures of faith.

But hunger asks something deeper than budgeting—it asks who we are when faced with someone else’s emptiness.

Do we scroll past, or do we look up? Do we hoard, or do we serve? Do we build walls of data or bridges of care?

The truth is, despite our wealth and connectivity, hunger remains what still binds us. It humbles us. It makes neighbors out of strangers. It reminds us that no matter how digital the world becomes, nothing replaces the sound of a shared meal—plates clinking, chairs scraping, laughter mixing with steam.

That’s the humanity the internet can’t replicate. The kind that can’t be uploaded, only witnessed.

So the answer to hunger begins not with politics or algorithms, but with presence. Remembering that someone, somewhere, is hungry tonight—and that we still have the power to feed them, even if only with our time, our attention, our company.

The price of hunger isn’t just food insecurity; it’s the loss of empathy, the forgetting of our collective pulse. But it’s not too late to remember the rhythm.

Because the thing about hunger—the painful, human truth—is that it teaches us what the internet can’t: that we were never meant to eat, to live, or to heal alone.

Kyle J. Hayes

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If this reflection spoke to you, I invite you to explore the rest of the Humanity Through Food collection — stories of endurance, community, and the quiet grace of making “enough” in uncertain times.

Each piece is a reminder that food is never just food — it’s a memory, a means of survival, and the most human act of all: sharing.

Bread, Memory, and the Price of Enough

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The Weight of Enough – The Evolution of Survival Food

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Nothing Wasted – The Grace of Leftovers

A reflection on thrift, gratitude, and the sacred art of using what remains.

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November 12, 2025